Long time no see.

Haven't written in a while. It's not because I have nothing to say, but really, I've just haven't had the need for it.

I've tried to change things around a bit, when it comes to what I share with others.

It started with me getting almost harassed every-time I wrote something "political", and specifically when I wrote something about the immigration situation. I asked over and over again, these two people, (old friends of mine) to stop writing. I got angry in the end, when they didn't respect me enough to stop going on and on about all the things that they believed was right. And it didn't take very long for them to say that I was censuring their opinions by asking them to stop going on and on. And in the end I got so angry, that I got to hear that I was undemocratic and also that I hurt their feelings by being so nasty about it.

I made it very clear, that it was enough with one comment and that would be fine. But the constant goings on. :( It made me most sad because I no longer respect either of them as my friends. I don't have enough friends to drop any one of them. But I felt uneasy. I wrote several posts about it, saying that if someone felt strongly about something, that they'd just post in on their on walls. No comment on that one.

Then I made groups, to exclude these two individuals from seeing anything I wrote. It felt stupid and silly.

And then I decided that every little thing I post on Facebook, will be made "only me" after 24 hours or less. Nothing will be seen or shown for anyone after that time.

It turned out that it was a good decision. I don't censor anyone, I just try to keep it more light. If I write something political, I do still exclude those two people. I already know their point of view. Nothing that they write surprises me or change my mind, even though they claim that it's only very stupid people who can't change their minds, which means that they're thinking that I should change my mind, about politics, racism, environment, global warming, and all things I feel strong about. And there is no way I can change their minds, or accept their views of the world at large. So.

It might seem like the long way around it, but I think that this works for me right now.

Last night, I was laying in bed thinking about this, and another thought came about. I don't chat with people anymore. No one has started a chat with me in a year or more. People answer (some don't) when I start a conversation with them, but it's cut short not by me but with the friend I am talking to. It's starting to be so that I don't dare to intrude on people.

When I say no one, I don't include my mom and my sisters!! They're amazing and wonderful.

But I rarely hear from anyone, not online or in the phone, texts etc. I would absolutely love to hear from friends. But if you don't feel like talking to me, no one should be forcing you. Not even me!

It's a rather lonely life that I am living, but it's MINE. I have the right to be here, in the world and I have the right to not being told that I am nasty and undemocratic and a person who censors other peoples opinion (when I already know them...)

Anyway, yeah, that's all for now.