The issues of a good nights sleep

Since I started this therapy my sleep has totally crashed. I do sleep, I do, but it's like there is a line between sleeping and being awake, and I've not managed to really cross the line properly, but instead I've been laying on the line, drifting in and out of sleep all night long. Waking up feeling like a total wreck.

Now, I am a person who need a lot of sleep to function. I've always been like that, apart from when I am manic, and then I need a couple of hours at the most. But being manic is not an option in my life anymore! After mania comes depression, and I am not doing that again. Not the proper depression.. Having to go live in a stupid mental ward again - no thanks.

Anyway, so last night I decided to take a couple of Oxazepam (Sobril) and I slept like a baby for 13 hours straight. I woke up, feeling like a new human being - my head is actually functioning again. Yay. But nothing I want to do often - the pills take away from the therapy I am doing. I could go through the whole therapy on that medicine and not feel a thing and yeah - not have changed anything. So, once in a while I can do this, but if it is more than once a month, I know I am doing wrong.