Not good

Yesterday I seriously considered taking all my pills just to get rid of the angst. Today I feel the same, but trying hard to think about what the end result of that would be. 1. someone would have to find my body cold and maybe eaten by maggots.. 2. ... Yeah, that's all I got to.

I do not want to be in a ward receiving ECT again, so I just keep it to myself mainly. Of course, writing it here isn't exactly keeping it schtum, but who is reading? I don't think anyone does, unless I also post it in twitter and facebook, which I just don't.

Thought I should try something new, so I tried buying Elder Scrolls Online but it wont let me buy it, so fuck it. Fuck all of it. Fuck Life.

I have no energy to sit up, so I am going back to bed now.