Getting to the point of the matter

So, after going through several types of mice, watching images, reading facts and watching movie-clips of them, I am finally going to therapy today, we will start talking about ..rats. Just saying the word is giving me lots of angst. This is what we will do today, talk about rats. Rats rats rats. Just writing the words is awful. I don't want to think about them, I've avoided it so much that it has ruined my life. It's been many years coming. I started worrying about them when Liam was very little. And from then on it's just been getting worse ...and worse.

And now I am here. I am going to face up to the word today. I will watch images of rats, and I will have to meet my fear. It's a small step for humanity, but a HUGE step for me. I am scared stiff.