1 step forward - 10 steps back

Homework today was so horrible. I just flipped out completely and had another panic-attack. I tried to move on a bit, from my real schedule, and it was a very bad idea.

Now I am just so dissapointed in myself. It's such a scary process and I feel so damn STUPID for being so scared, terrified. People give comments on how "cute" these creatures are and it just makes me feel even dumber. For me, there is nothing cute, I just feel so awful about them living in the same world as me. And I've yet to get started on rats.. I am still on mice. :(

So sad. So dissapointed.