

Love in life
Something that I miss in my life, and have missed out of a lot, and broken so many times, is love. Romantic love sure, but I am talking...


A blog entry.
The last few weeks have been so too much for me. I've constant anxiety over the things I cannot control. Like when I have to start to go...


Life
I just don't feel like living it anymore. My life is crap, I am just a leech on society and friends and family. I give nothing, and I am...


Letting go
I've been thinking about this for weeks, months even. I've had some real close friends in my life, and I've lost more friends than I care...


The danger of simplifying.
I think that people need to know just how deadly dangerous mental illnesses can be. No, when I am down, I can't "shape up" or "shake it...


Oxazepam
Oxazepam is a substance which makes you calmer and somewhat muscle-relaxing. Since last night I've taken quite a few, I don't have many...


Meanderings
I am feeling as if my life has no meaning. I am isolated, lonely, passive. I do pretty much nothing. I don't go outside apart from back...


1 step forward - 10 steps back
Homework today was so horrible. I just flipped out completely and had another panic-attack. I tried to move on a bit, from my real...


Dissed by friends (and family)
For a long time, I've felt that I've been dissed by friends and sometimes family too. It's not unusual and it's not always their faults....


Motivation....?
I find it hard to motivate myself to do anything at all. Eat, shower, get up from bed, live. I feel ugly and wrong and big and stale....