

Love in life
Something that I miss in my life, and have missed out of a lot, and broken so many times, is love. Romantic love sure, but I am talking...


Life?
Went to therapy yesterday. My therapist got worried about my general mood, and got me to talk to a doctor there, just to check if it was...


Desperate and lonely
So tired of isolation, of being so alone. Just want death. I keep feeling envious at people who have died. I just wish I was anywhere...


Meanderings
I am feeling as if my life has no meaning. I am isolated, lonely, passive. I do pretty much nothing. I don't go outside apart from back...


Dissed by friends (and family)
For a long time, I've felt that I've been dissed by friends and sometimes family too. It's not unusual and it's not always their faults....


The beautiful world of TV and movies
One thing that happens when you're alone at home as much as me, is that you spend an awful lot of time... watching the telly. In my case,...
Therapy session number 4.
Today was particularly hard. I slept bad and I felt weepy all the way to the therapy in the car, and everything just felt lost. I felt...


Motivation....?
I find it hard to motivate myself to do anything at all. Eat, shower, get up from bed, live. I feel ugly and wrong and big and stale....


My mom deserves a gold medal. (that she can sell for some cash)
Things are very quiet and slow. I don't talk to people and people don't talk to me. (apart from my mom who is my heroin!) I am stressed...


Isolation is hard
I hadn't thought about it really, but just now I saw an article about depression and isolation and I guess that's where I am at right...