Starting the new medicine
Just thought I should put it in here, so that I remember exactly when it was, and I can remember to check for anything, like less suicide...


Problematic life
Well, So. After a while of having a pause in my therapy, we've now decided to start it up again. I am on higher doses of medications and...


Does it have to be unhygienic in the gym?
There is a gym-sort-of-a-place (Itrim) close by where I live. I could see myself walking up there and back, it wouldn't be too hard....


Life
I just don't feel like living it anymore. My life is crap, I am just a leech on society and friends and family. I give nothing, and I am...


Knocking myself out
I just took like 4 benzo's just to knock my thoughts out of me. I hope it will work, because I am on high alert right now. There was an...


Rat-free toilets
Once a week. That's how often the institution for pest control go out to deal with rats coming up through the toilet of someones house or...


Is the world telling me something?
I haven't been outside much in this last (almost) year now. It got harder and harder, and then eventually it didn't work at all, stepping...


Save the planet, save the world
There are so many issues out there. So many things to get in to, feel connected to and to live by. Too many things really. The more I am...


Letting go
I've been thinking about this for weeks, months even. I've had some real close friends in my life, and I've lost more friends than I care...


Feeling blessed
This weekend has been so lovely as I've been hanging out with two of my favourite people. On saturday (yesterday) Helena came over and we...