

My Beautiful sister number 2
My sister Lisa is now on-board with me staying in a hotel, I can't thank either of them enough. <3 <3 <3


My beautiful sister
My sister is paying for me to go stay in a hotel wednesday - friday, the one right by my flat. It's expensive and possibly fancier than I...
Waiting for death
Sounds drastic doesn't it? Waiting for death. But right now, and for a long time, that's all I am doing. I can't kill myself because I...


Oxazepam
Oxazepam is a substance which makes you calmer and somewhat muscle-relaxing. Since last night I've taken quite a few, I don't have many...


Meanderings
I am feeling as if my life has no meaning. I am isolated, lonely, passive. I do pretty much nothing. I don't go outside apart from back...


Homework week 5.
Homework this week is particularly horrible. I am watching a movie of a mouse which is chased by a cat, which is helped by a human, in...


Therapy session number 5.
The anticipation before this therapy session was a sweaty one. I don't know why but I was just nervous before the session. I also had...


Evil sleep
Sleep is important to the soul, everyone knows this. I do need to sleep a lot to feel good, nine hours is okay, sometimes ten. But the...


Surgery or no surgery
So. A while back I had to go to hospital with a lot of pain, it turned out to be stones in my gall-bladder. They didn't have to do...


1 step forward - 10 steps back
Homework today was so horrible. I just flipped out completely and had another panic-attack. I tried to move on a bit, from my real...